This was written July 9th 2013:
All my transformation pictures have been
from the previous 6-8 months. Here's a picture of me at my heaviest. I was
pushing 190 & I'm only 5'6. All bad. This is hard & embarrassing for me
to post & share. This was @ the end of 2011. I was not a happy person
during this time & spent most of my week drinking & binge eating &
not taking care of my body, clearly. I carry most of my weight on my upper body
& had constant back pain, no wonder. I now have ZERO back pain. Moving to Arizona
to go to ASU was the best decision of my life. I lived in the dorm for a year
which wasn't great on my body either but I was in the gym a couple days a week.
Then my uncle whom I'm extremely close with got diagnosed with a rare &
deadly cancer & I just lost it. I was all alone out here in AZ & went
back to the alcohol & food. A friend of mine I met through school asked me
if I wanted to start lifting at independence gym & ever since getting a
membership there my life has changed. I started taking everything inside me out
in the gym. I started losing weight minimally & it wasn't until I started
with my coach/trainer now that I've seen such results. Everyone is different
& for me I have to be 150% with my diet & exercise. Consistency &
patience is key. I was in a dark place for a very long time & now I can
finally say that I'm the happiest I have ever been with life; not only
physically but mentally & emotionally too. I have learned so much through
this journey & I plan on never looking back & letting myself get to an
overwhelming amount of weight again. I used to look at other fit girls &
think why not me? Why can't I look like that ? I wished I could look like them.
Well now I don't want to look like someone else, I want to look like the best
version of me. I don't think my coach really realizes that she's changed my
life & i am forever grateful for her support & the continued support
from my true #fitfam. I'm far from where I want to be but
I'm getting better & closer everyday & most importantly I'm getting
further & further away from what I used to be. Not sure if anyone will
actually read all this junk & that's okay. I'm glad I wrote this all out
anyway so I can remind myself of what I've been through & the struggles
I've had with my body. I'd like to thank all the people who have stuck by my
side & have encouraged me to continue down this path, y'all know who you
are. & to the haters & people who continued to put me down for not
being the "old me" I see you for what you truly are & I want
nothing to do with you. I the real people & I can you fake fucks. But thank
you haters for telling me that I could never look better, you truly have made
me a beast.
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